I Can Be It, I Was

Sometimes people walk out of your life. You've dedicated your life to them, and they decide you aren't worth their time. I am not dealing with this right now, but Season 4 me did. I had to go through having someone walk out of my life, knowing they wouldn't come back for me. Leonard even said it, he dated 4 other girls when we were broken up. Believe it or not, he dated 4 when we broke up, I dated none. Penny, me, didn't date a guy when Leonard dated 4 girls! I mean, come on. Unrealistic. Okay, off topic. My point is, I've seen Season 4 episodes and how I deal with my life. I can be it again, I was it. If I can't have Leonard, why should that bother me? He's not my whole life. So, I'm not basing my entire life on Leonard, I can be Season 4 me whenever I want. It's simple. Besides, if I can't be like episodes me no matter what I do, then I don't have to stay. Riley actually has to stay no matter how much her life changes. Me, not me. I don't have to. If this gets out of hand, Maya and Auggie will be left with Riley until my life is okay. Like I said in Season 4 one time, there is an enemy zone, a neutral zone and the love zone. Season 4 me and Leonard were in the neutral zone. Long story short, Sheldon apparently made us stay in the same room. There were 2 beds, I was in one, he was in one. Then, I said it wouldn't be that bad to violate the Neutral Zone for 1 night. I mean, I'm better than that! This time, I would never do that. I feel sooo stupid for doing that! I feel like such an idiot! I'm not going to be upset about this one way or another. I've had time to know that about me. The thing is, I can't watch my Season 4 on the computer, we don't have full episodes. Have ya ever heard of clips? Well, I can use those. Besides, they are playing reruns of Season 4 on TV right now. I have plenty of time to be like that again. And if I can't, I don't have to be. I can just go off, and Auggie and Maya will have Riley, that's it. So, one way or another, I'll end up just fine. Besides, I can be Season 4, I was it. If episodes me can last, so can I.